Ibarat

Aku boleh ibaratkan hidup aku seperti buih-buih di udara,
Bila ditiup, barulah aku keluar,
Perlukan seseorang supaya boleh menolak aku menghadapi realiti hidup,
Bukan sengaja aku menyendiri,
Tapi aku tidak kuat untuk melawan rintangan yang ada bersendirian.

Apabila telah ditolak keluar,
Bersama dengan sokongan mereka yang menyayangi aku,
Aku mengorak langkah ke dunia ini,
Dengan harapan aku boleh terbang tinggi dan tinggi lagi,
Tanpa memandang lagi apa yang ada di belakang.

Bila aku sudah terbang tinggi,
Aku berharap yang aku tidak akan berhenti disitu sahaja,
Walaupun aku tahu,
Setinggi mana aku terbang,
Aku pasti akan jatuh,
Kerana bila detik itu tiba,
Aku tahu aku telah jumpa apa yang aku cari dalam hidup aku.

Complicated

How am i supposed to start?

Its hard for me to expel it, because i know that nobody could understand my feelings right now. This time my love story is complicated, i mean damn complicated! I never thought i be in love like this! 

At first i was afraid to answer to this  love call because he already have a girlfriend. In a blink of an eye, we two fall in love without we even noticed. It just comes naturally when we started to watch movie and also break our fast together. From there, we know that both of us have the chemistry. We just feel so comfortable when we talks, jokes, laughs and many more. Its makes me feel so calm when i can be myself without even pretending to be someone else whenever im with him.

What can i say? He confess to me that he has watching me since so long and i do realized it. Sometimes i feel like that this is all my fault because im the one who text him first. But then he try to comfort me by saying that its not even my fault because he also love me. By the time i asked him to choose, he cant do it. He loved both of us and don't want to break our feelings. Like WTF?! 

I understand that it is not easy for him to make a decisions. It just that i feel like im the one who is being played with. I know Allah already decided what is the best for me.